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Look in the mirror. Does the person you see match the person you feel like on the inside? How much stock do you put in appearances?
I looked in a mirror, but it broke. Hang on – lemme get another one.
Okay, looking again. I hear this sound like when you put ice in a drink, but it didn’t break. Anyway, I do not feel that old. I know I should, but I just don’t. I feel like parts of my life don’t count, so the years don’t count. Not for anything bad, but just because nothing really happened. Or I don’t remember them.
So I am 45 as of January 9th. Yeah, I can’t believe it either. “He’s so immature! He’s got to be kidding.” Yes, and no. Yes, I can be immature sometimes, you big doodiehead, but sometimes I can be serious and stern. I think what I do is modular. I’m ‘me’, right, but the interface I use can be changed to suit my mood, or the situation, or whatever. I can be fun and silly guy, I can be ‘drunk guy’, I can be ‘FUCK THIS FUCKING FUCK!’ guy, and everything in between.
I cannot be ‘Nickelback rules!’ guy.
What the hell does this have to do with the mirror? I don’t worry much about the mirror, other than ensuring I don’t have things in my teeth or nose. Of course, it helps that I’m a guy so I don’t have to worry about makeup and stuff, but I haven’t touched a hair dryer in 25 years, and I have made sure of what I’m wearing – safe, boring, yes, but mostly professional – the night before, usually. That was a compound sentence! I love those things.
Anyway, when I look in the mirror, I check the hair for about 10 seconds, the teeth/nose thing for 10, and maybe the eyes for redness, but that’s about it. I know what my clothes will look like – though I do look in the mirror for tying a tie. I’m neither flashy nor sloppy. My hairstyle is neither dated nor futuristic. I’m very low maintenance.
I might notice that my hair doesn’t look as good today as yesterday, or something, but I also know that literally every time someone tells me they don’t look as good today as yesterday, I honestly can’t really tell the difference. Therefore, I figure other people must view me the same way. That helps me not to worry about it.
So to answer the questions, I feel fine with myself, everything pretty much matches, though the degree to which I look younger than my actual age is slowly shrinking, and I put stock in my appearance well in advance of having to worry about it by choosing certain clothes and a certain hairstyle.
Mirror, Mirror, on the wall….